Again, I need to say that school's been occupying me. But that's fine, since I've got things to do to pass my time at school, like staring at the beautiful nature that (thank the Lord) surround my school and just let it comfort me; or talk with people there who also bring me comfort.
Now that I look at my life, I think I pretty much have 100% everything to be grateful about. Isn't that wonderful?
Yes, that's wonderful. Anyway, have I mentioned how much I love poetry right now? Yes, I have posted several poems in this blog, but it's just now that I feel the magnitude. And it's awesome, just awesome. How it envelops an emotion and sends it off to somebody out there reading it; well, even though the emotion may not be one and the same because people's experiences differ that.
I've been thinking a lot about the future these days, and I don't seem to know what I want to do. I lurv nature, I lurv reading and writing, I lurv science, I lurv arts. OH COOL VIRTA YOU FINALLY CATEGORIZE YOUR INTERESTS. Well, this is getting somewhere... ahahaha.
In regards of nature, I think I would like to be of contribution towards the efforts of salvaging (I'm blaming Yola for my use of this word) what's left of this world. Take a look at what we humans have done to this world... not so good. In short, I'd like to contribute to that also, in a more significant way: taking part in creating a sustainable Earth-friendly energy source, replanting trees, conserving endangered species, etc.
In regards of reading and writing, I've specifically said that I love poetry. So maybe I'll get into that. I have these things in my head and I think that they'll be of great use for my writing. I'm hoping that I'll get to publish a book.
In regards of science, I don't know, I just particularly enjoy science because it unravels the 'puzzles' of this universe one by one and, somehow, it all connects. I don't have any idea on what I want to do in this field, since everything here is just so mysterious and I don't know how to get into it myself (for now).
In regards of arts, oh... I just enjoy things that pleases the heart through the eye. And I would especially love it if it's not just pleasing, it's also a form of education of the emotion. It came to my mind several times, the want to be a designer. But I don't think that this is really my calling or anything... I'm not 70-100% 'into it'.
Oh wow. I do have an idea of what I want to become. Cool... but they're not so planned and detailed, are they? Hahahaha. Well, at least that's something.
Anyway, I realize that I've been whipping myself so hard. I've been wanting myself to be so perfect and like how people want me to be. I would like to bid those days farewell, because I don't want my life to be controlled by other people. Yes, people do influence me whether or not I like it, but I don't want everyone to influence me.
So yeah. Hm. Those are my thoughts.
I'm still waiting for the AFS announcement meant for me(if there will be any for me). Wanting to be optimistic about it, but I'm not hearing a lot... let's just see what happens.
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